Here's my take on it: Marriage is the right answer, if you both are on the same path, on the same level spiritually, and in the same church worshipping together and helping each other (in your case, Orthodox). Being the only Orthodox in your family is a difficult path, trust me...I'm one of them.
True, in my case my wife has turned away from God and wants nothing to do with church so thats why Im in this difficult situation now, by the way I dont watch porn I once used to years ago but for many years now I hardlt ever watch just now and then when I fall like once a year or something like that but no masterbation, over the years God has some how helped me improve, but coming off sex now lately has tempted me to watch once or twice, and its usually during week moments like late at night or when Im tiered etc , on a normal day it doesnt seem to be a problem at all
Imagine a country full of Christian men who don't abuse themselves. Who are not full of constant shame, are clear-headed, and highly motivated to accomplish things. Who can see above all the lies and temptations we are bombarded with.If you ever feel tempted to masturbate, just think about how terrified the Jews are of you abstaining and this will give you motivation to stop
This is true, my wife stopped being intimate with me the moment she cheated.
No I dont but I think she is, I do think she would like to though, she wants to get divorced for some time it all started around the time she left Christianity and I became Orthodox, we have kids so thats whats holding eveylrything together at the moment and obviously God. My wife has developed a hate for me, she wont even lay a finger on me or even let me give a hug hello or kiss on cheek goodbye not even a handshake, after my wife left Christianity she got involved in the occult so I know for sure this is a spiritual thing
It is not uncommon for Orthodox catechumens and newly baptised Orthodox to be put through difficult trials and suffering. If it is any consolation, it is a sign that you are on the right path. That being said, I think you need to have an open and frank discussion with her and don't beat around the bush. Tell her what your expectations are, what Biblical imperatives there are in a marriage (for both man and wife), and whether she can live with and abide by that. If not, you have your answer. First and foremost, you should discuss this with your priest at length. Her denying you any and all affection and physical contact is a massive breach of the spiritual marriage contract in itself. In the long term, if not resolved, it will lead to bitterness, resentment, anger, and potentially violence. Better to separate and live separate lives, and find some peace in that case. I know from my personal (and similar) experience, that separation and years apart, allowed everything to de-escalate and we can now tolerate each other for holidays and such, while keeping the peace and civility for the children's sake.
On my side Im not gonna split up I have kids and Its not gonna do them any good for us to divorve Im prepared to suffer through for their sake If It means no sex then so be it. Anyway so good news, I managed to seduce her finally around 2-3am while she was fast asleep and her logical mind off and we made love, so it took me like 50 tries and turn downs and no's to finally get this yes for intimacy, before it was easier for me to make love to her because she still allowed me to touch her hand, feet, scratch her back etc, this time was a lot harder because she didnt allow any touching, so it did ease things up a little between us and I was allowed to give her a hug and kiss of the forehead this morning on my way out. Yes I have and am going through some serious trials during my catechism, all kinds, financial, sex, marriage, family, persecutions and just really difficult situations etc the good part about it is that its forced me to take my faith very seriously, prayers late at nigh when Im very sleepy, fastings, church, even at church I stand throughout the entire service and full attention only sit for the sermon because its so precious to me, I know these are trials God is allowing to happen to me for my good
So for example, my bedside table has my prayer rope, cross, icons, my church books im reading, on her side she has crystals, tarrot cards and she practices astrology and has read occult books and watched many videos, she is also started flirting with atheism, no its not people who came into her life physically this started during lockdowns when she wasnt going anywhere, you can be influenced online, just like we have this group here for Christians they also have pages ans groups and videos etc, you cant force people to repent and believe in Christ, I do believe some day she will convert, even though she is into this stuff Gods hand is protecting us and I do a lot of praying for her and the kids and others are praying too, I prayer in my garahe with incense and candles at my prayer corner with my prayer book, I have holy water too and I also light candles and prayer for her at the liturgy, I know you are a protestant, I was too, but the way we do our prayers in Orthodoxy is quite different if I must say especiallt having a prayer corner here at home its a real blessing
Lord have mercy, I recall having seen her videos years ago. I feel like a complete scumbag now, like the most wretched sinner especially knowing she was abused.
The whore said in the video that "just because I did porn it doesn't mean I am a bad person". It means exactly that. Then she said "I don't believe in God, I believe I'm god". She is delusional and shunning her was the correct reaction according to St Paul, in order to protect the young boys in the congregation and for her to learn the truth about herself. Unfortunately she appears to have learned nothing.
How exactly are you using St Paul to justify this? Jesus even spent time with sinners to call them to repentance.
