I cruised off and on from 2013 to 2016 then came off cold turkey after about two years of being 'on'. Tried to conceive with my then fiance' (bad idea) who's biological clock was ticking. Turns out that after three years of being 'off' cold turkey, I had ZERO sperm and T levels at about 300. My HPTA NEVER RECOVERED! I was 47 at the time and had already fathered two kids.
Fast forward to today, I'd been on for 2 and a half years: mostly Equipoise and Deca with a base Test Enanthate of around 700mg/wk with orals mixed in here and there. Been off for 8 weeks last week and had a PCT regimen of HCG, HMG, Nolvadex and over the counter herbs.
At 51 now, my system will never fully recover and I will be on exogenous Test for the rest of my life to one degree or another. I get it, it's a choice I made a long time ago.
Pros: Gym gains with proper diet and I just feel like a million bucks when 'on' if that makes sense.
Cons: Testicular atrophy, have to watch blood pressure and I have to take ancillaries to control Prolactin and Estrogen. Have to donate blood from time to time because of high red blood cells and hemacrit. Also, if you have problems with lust, those problems will be a great deal more difficult to control when 'on'.
Getting a home blood pressure tester and getting regular blood work is a must if you are going to be on exogenous T. Eventually I'll come down to HRT levels one day but I'm not ready for that yet. Just started Deca 600mg/wk and Test E 750mg/wk.
HCG helped bring the testicles back pretty quickly. The HMG mimics FSH and will get sperm production going for those out there who want to conceive. A Nolvadex or Clomid will help activate the pituitary to signal normal HPTA activity.
It's not for everybody and you have to decide if the risks are worth it for you. I do not advocate or condemn...