I had a vivid dream Tuesday night that has bothered me all week. I dreamt that I was exiting an industrial building through the basement. The basement had concrete floors and walls covered by faded and chipping paint. It was dimly lit and slightly damp and musty. It was uncluttered but had some rusty, old style YMCA type exercise machines along the walls. There were openings in the walls (doorways) without doors. You had to climb up two concrete steps to pass through.
As I made my way through the basement I noticed a single twin bed off in one corner. I walked over to it and saw my daughter who is now deceased. My daughter was medically fragile her whole life and passed away when she was six years old. I saw her laying on the bed with her mask on and all of her medical equipment on the bed. When she saw me her eyes got huge as if to say "Daddy, you finally came!"
I rushed over to the bed and knelt down and hugged her. But then her eyes got very narrow and it seemed like she was accusing me "Why did you leave me here like this, alone for so long!" I tried telling her I didn't know she was there but I couldn't get through to her. I woke sobbing.
I really don't dream much anymore and nothing as vivid as this in a long time. It has really bothered and distracted me. When I think about it I have to fight against tearing up.
As I made my way through the basement I noticed a single twin bed off in one corner. I walked over to it and saw my daughter who is now deceased. My daughter was medically fragile her whole life and passed away when she was six years old. I saw her laying on the bed with her mask on and all of her medical equipment on the bed. When she saw me her eyes got huge as if to say "Daddy, you finally came!"
I rushed over to the bed and knelt down and hugged her. But then her eyes got very narrow and it seemed like she was accusing me "Why did you leave me here like this, alone for so long!" I tried telling her I didn't know she was there but I couldn't get through to her. I woke sobbing.
I really don't dream much anymore and nothing as vivid as this in a long time. It has really bothered and distracted me. When I think about it I have to fight against tearing up.