DeusLuxMeaEst
Catholic
To respond to the original question. I have issues with this, and to be honest it is a big factor in the periods when I am depressed or anxious.
I don’t own a TV and rarely view social media. My life consists of work, hobbies, church. I live in a liberal state so making new friendships is not easy. I have friends I have known for years, but many never turned the corner to come back to God so I don’t see them often. I have some bad habits still that I am working with my priest to expunge. No alcohol or drug use thank God, mainly issues with fornication, although rarely do I watch porn. I haven’t quit cold turkey though and still relapse. I do dumb things with some girls I know, and confess this. I still gamble occasionally but only poker games never for a any big losses.
Mainly it is the feeling of being completely isolated and atomized. My job keeps me busy, but there are still the DEI emails which I ignore. The people I work with are not of my background. I feel no reason to work hard because it seems that most women are not worth it for me to get involved with. I originally started stacking cash and invested for freedom but I never got to that point where I just left it all behind. Plus I have some aging relatives that makes it difficult to do that.
I read spiritual books and watch religious media when I’m alone since I live by myself, but I admit it is a lonely life. I don’t feel a cause I am committed to. I don’t feel like I’m contributing to the world or have a purpose even though I pray to God to give me one. I feel as if I truly committed and gave myself no way out say, quitting my job and entering a monastery for a period I would feel better, but it’s a scary thought. I have the financial resources to do it, but still.
Even if you try not to be of the world just living in it will beat you down slowly. Nobody said trying to take the high road would be easy, instead I feel attacked and lonely. The suggestion that men should marry or become monks or priests (or both if Orthodox) seems true. If I had a religious wife and kids to raise I’d have much more motivation, and I’d be forced to be motivated. I still perform well in my job, but it’s becoming harder and harder.
I don’t own a TV and rarely view social media. My life consists of work, hobbies, church. I live in a liberal state so making new friendships is not easy. I have friends I have known for years, but many never turned the corner to come back to God so I don’t see them often. I have some bad habits still that I am working with my priest to expunge. No alcohol or drug use thank God, mainly issues with fornication, although rarely do I watch porn. I haven’t quit cold turkey though and still relapse. I do dumb things with some girls I know, and confess this. I still gamble occasionally but only poker games never for a any big losses.
Mainly it is the feeling of being completely isolated and atomized. My job keeps me busy, but there are still the DEI emails which I ignore. The people I work with are not of my background. I feel no reason to work hard because it seems that most women are not worth it for me to get involved with. I originally started stacking cash and invested for freedom but I never got to that point where I just left it all behind. Plus I have some aging relatives that makes it difficult to do that.
I read spiritual books and watch religious media when I’m alone since I live by myself, but I admit it is a lonely life. I don’t feel a cause I am committed to. I don’t feel like I’m contributing to the world or have a purpose even though I pray to God to give me one. I feel as if I truly committed and gave myself no way out say, quitting my job and entering a monastery for a period I would feel better, but it’s a scary thought. I have the financial resources to do it, but still.
Even if you try not to be of the world just living in it will beat you down slowly. Nobody said trying to take the high road would be easy, instead I feel attacked and lonely. The suggestion that men should marry or become monks or priests (or both if Orthodox) seems true. If I had a religious wife and kids to raise I’d have much more motivation, and I’d be forced to be motivated. I still perform well in my job, but it’s becoming harder and harder.