TruthTeller
Other Christian
I wanted to post in @TrainedLogosmotion monk mode celibacy thread, but it seems like I couldn’t.
Last night I took a step in the right direction and deleted every phone number of a woman who could be a temptation. All gone. I then watched a video from Father Spyridon, specifically this one:
I’m not Orthodox, but I really like him and his mini sermons pack more of a punch than some full homilies and sermons.
I prayed and asked God to help me in this struggle, stop these stupid acts and find a religious wife. I was inspired by @canuckj post in the dating app thread. Then I went to sleep and things got weird.
I woke up around 2:30 AM and felt heaviness in my chest, like I was being pressed down and burning, but I didn’t see anything. I got up had some water and went back to sleep. I then proceeded to have a very vivid dream where this Asian woman was trying to seduce me. In my dream I resisted her advances and then it seemed like I was being chased by everyone in the bar who were angry at me (the dream occurred in a bar)
I find it very strange that when you make a commitment to stop sinful ways these things happen. It’s not the first time, once I was praying a novena had sleep paralysis and saw an imp like creature.
Last night I took a step in the right direction and deleted every phone number of a woman who could be a temptation. All gone. I then watched a video from Father Spyridon, specifically this one:
I’m not Orthodox, but I really like him and his mini sermons pack more of a punch than some full homilies and sermons.
I prayed and asked God to help me in this struggle, stop these stupid acts and find a religious wife. I was inspired by @canuckj post in the dating app thread. Then I went to sleep and things got weird.
I woke up around 2:30 AM and felt heaviness in my chest, like I was being pressed down and burning, but I didn’t see anything. I got up had some water and went back to sleep. I then proceeded to have a very vivid dream where this Asian woman was trying to seduce me. In my dream I resisted her advances and then it seemed like I was being chased by everyone in the bar who were angry at me (the dream occurred in a bar)
I find it very strange that when you make a commitment to stop sinful ways these things happen. It’s not the first time, once I was praying a novena had sleep paralysis and saw an imp like creature.