Hi Jenn,
I've thought a lot about how to respond to your post...
Hi, Zep
I agree that the powers that be go to extreme lengths to suppress the divinity within people. Personally, after years of searching and researching, I've come to believe that they're ultimately working in service to evil, Satan and all his demons.
Before I was baptized into the Orthodox Church, over the years I visited dozens of different churches of different denominations going back to early childhood, searching for the truth. Eventually I tried a nice non-denominational church and kind of settled in there.
I had a lot of questions, and the pastor referred me to a woman who was a member of that church. We began a mentoring, counseling type of relationship. Throughout my life I've had many interesting experiences, including episodes of clairvoyance, clear, detailed visions of places and events before they happened.
I had also gotten into some new age stuff, like law of attraction, or "manifesting," where you think about and write about and talk about the things you want in great detail, and then they come into being. I had gotten very good at this, to the point that almost anything I focused on would come to be, with increasing speed and accuracy.
I asked this lady where these downloads or hits or insights or answers or responses come from. The woo woo philosophy or theology would tell you it comes from "the universe." But I had begun to ask myself if it was all coming from a good place, or not. I felt a sense of this power or ability, and the possibility that it might not all be coming from a pure or good source troubled me.
This lady was very nice and she helped me in some ways, but she wasn't a Christian, and I didn't feel I was getting the full truth from her.
I don't think this kind of visualization is all wrong. In fact, the Bible says, in Matthew 7:
7 Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.
After discussion with a priest and reflection, I now understand that God answers prayers that are... Godly, in accordance with doing His will. Asking for wealth or luxuries and the like isn't Godly. It's worldly.
Please forgive my simplistic explanations. I'm a very new Christian, just 3 1/2 years in, and I've heard and I believe it takes a long time (like 20 years) to even begin to get your arms around it.
Not long after that, I came across a video - I believe it was on the old Roosh V Forum - that connected all the dots for me and convinced me once and for all that I had to become a true Christian. I'll share the video with you, but I have to warn you to proceed with caution. After I watched this video, I had terrible nightmares for the next two nights. I understood right away that I was under attack by dark forces (demons) who were trying to scare me. But it only reinforced the truth for me and strengthened my conviction.
Now I understand that I was right to be concerned and discerning about any help or insights or power I was receiving from "the universe." Now I understand that dark forces can give you wonderful things and make your life easy, comfortable, wealthy, happy, and carefree. As long as you're relishing all the worldly things and not looking beyond, not striving for something higher, they're happy because they've got you - stuck in low-level worldly pleasures and not under God's wing.
From Matthew 7:
13 Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. 14 Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.
Be careful who or what you surrender to. In my opinion, the only one worthy of our surrender is Jesus, the incarnate son of God.
It won't be easy. If it's a true surrender, you will carry your cross, as Jesus commanded. You will enter the spiritual battle and you will be targeted.
But it's worth it. I believe life is one big test and this is the only way to pass the test. This is the only way we can unite with God, with good, and overcome evil.
Please pray for me and I'll pray for you
